It took me a year longer than I planned to transcribe the interviews!

But they’re done! Even the one case that won’t be included in the actual thesis, in case I want to use it for another publication eventually. I still have 4 more to do, two of which need to be transcribed and analyzed for a book chapter due in June (2 months from now!), but I am officially done transcribing the interviews for my doctoral thesis – this is a huge milestone, given how tortuous actually transcribing them was. First I played them back at 60% speed using ExpressScribe software and my trusty transcription pedal, and then I listened again and checked the transcription at 90% speed. I didn’t calculate how long this took me, because the main problem was that even though I find the participants’ narratives fascinating, I found the actual transcription incredibly boring – it goes against my nature to be so painstakingly thorough, listening again and again to the same sentence to make sure I got every single word right. Everyone asked why I did it myself, and I insisted that it was because the transcription is my first stage of analysis, I am now very very familiar with my data. But, I transcribed 54 (10 to 45 minute long) interviews over the course of 2 years. I am glad I did it myself, but, as I plan on continuing to do qualitative research that requires transcription (and I don’t believe every interview needs to be transcribed, they did for this project because of the methodology), next time I will pay someone else to do the actual transcription, and then I will check each one myself to correct or clarify minor errors. That way I can still listen to my data myself, but not quite so much.

I almost didn’t work on the transcriptions today because my to-do list is filled with small tasks I need to do for other people: read over student papers, correct a colleague’s English, read over a book proposal, committee work…but I know I will do those things at the last minute and I decided to prioritize my thesis. I am so pleased!

I survived the first semester!

I wanted to write this post before the Christmas break, but I realized I hadn’t yet survived the semester, because I had an assignment and an exam to correct (70 of each, actually) over the holidays. By the time I was done, the next semester had started…so here we are in mid-February. The course I taught during this intensive session just ended, but I have oral presentation marks to compile (I had them evaluate each other, which seemed like a great idea at the time, but turned out to be an organizational nightmare), and final papers to mark (60 of them). Still, if I stop accepting side projects, I should be able to make serious progress on my thesis very soon.

So what have I learned? What will I do differently next time round? What would I do differently if I had to do it all again?

First of all, I learned that you can’t be perfect the first time round. I taught 2 new courses this year, to a different clientele (young future kindergarten teachers, instead of adult childcare educators), at a new university. They went well, but now I know what to adjust next time, both in terms of content and because I am getting a sense of who the students are, so I have some ideas about how to adjust the emotional support/encouragement/community building I need to do with them. Next year won’t be perfect either, but it should be better.

I also learned to never schedule a final paper the week before or after a final exam – especially if I don’t have any teaching assistantship help. I don’t ever want to spend all of the Christmas break correcting again.

I learned that professors from other universities, who ignored you as a graduate student, call up and ask you to collaborate with them once you become a professor, even if you don’t have your PhD yet. I learned that without a PhD you’re not entitled to university or research council funding, so it’s OK to pay the student rate on conference registrations. It’s not OK to apply for scholarships because you would be taking a significant amount of money away from a grad student without a real salary, even if all your salary is being used to pay back the debts you acquired as a student.

I could have taken my 2 course reductions for the purpose of integration in the Fall, and spent the whole semester finishing my thesis. I was too excited about the job, and logistically it made more sense to take 1 reduction this Winter, and one next Winter (because I am still commuting each week). I have mixed feelings about this. It was a lot easier to teach the second course because I had taught the first one, and being present on campus helped me get to know my colleagues. Let’s face it, finishing the thesis might have been the smarter option, but sometimes you have other priorities.

I am not surprised that the balance between research and teaching is hard to maintain, that teaching takes up a LOT of my time. I am hoping that teaching the same classes next year will help a bit, but I think this is just part of the job.

I also wish I could teach smaller classes, because I find 60, or even 40 and 30, too big to really get to know the students and provide the best possible education – although I shouldn’t complain, I know there are people who teach classes of 100, 200, 500!

In the end, I probably wouldn’t do anything differently if I could go back and start again – I would still feel really lucky to have this job and I would still be highly critical of myself, particularly in terms of teaching. I would still procrastinate when it come to the boring parts of the job – like marking, and transcribing, and I would still agree to start or be part of too many projects, because they are so exciting…even if the advice I would give to others would be different!




Am I addicted to recognition?

Some company released a top 50 list of research universities in Canada this week and my university (the one I work at, not the one I study at) was ranked number 48. I was proud to share this with friends, family and colleagues. It’s kind of like saying, I feel like I won the lottery, but please don’t envy me, you wouldn’t want this position anyway. I am also happy about this because the university doesn’t have insane expectations for productivity, so you can be a professor and have a really great work-life balance. I have already mentioned the teaching load that feels very reasonable to me, but there are also minimum yearly requirements for research, service, and administrative tasks. For example, I need to be working on two research projects at all times and have 2 “communications” a year (that’s a paper or a conference presentation!). Like I said, I feel like I won the lottery. But, this week I submitted an article, and am working on another 2 articles and a chapter. I’m part of 2 grant submissions (as collaborator or co-researcher), I was officially invited to be a keynote at an international conference (OMG! In 2017, but more on that some other time), I’m preparing for 2 conference presentations in Europe during the next month, I’m guest editing a special issue of a journal, I’m organizing a couple of conference events, I’m preparing another conference submission, I’m being interviewed on the radio…that’s three years of minimum requirements right there (not all of it is research, some is service, but still). Now I understand that October is a busy time for researchers in Canada (maybe elsewhere too), but I stopped and asked myself what I’m doing all this for? Yes, yes, I like doing these things, most of them were my idea, but am I doing it all because I am contributing to something larger than myself, or am I hooked on recognition? One of my professor friends is super critical of the whole academic rat-race, ad particularly of the self-congratulatory posts on department websites – so and so published a book, so and so was interviewed in the newspaper, so and so’s grant proposal was ranked number 1…He asked me if I craved recognition like that and quickly answered for himself that of course I didn’t, but I’m not so sure. What I am sure of is that I don’t want to do things for the wrong reasons. I don’t want to publish or present just for recognition. I want to share my work because I have something important to say, but then, is it the work I want recognized, or myself as a scholar? And what about all those academic social media sites, academia, research gate, even this blog – do we do them to network and keep up with what colleagues are working on, or to check how many views and downloads we get? I am off to spend my Saturday revising my book chapter – more existential reflections later!

Your job is to be selfish, keep your head down, and get through the year

Maybe it’s the years I spent coordinating a research group, or as a student rep sitting in on faculty meetings, but the reality of life as a professor has not come as a shock. I’m lucky, I only teach 4 courses a year (and have 2 course reductions over the first 2 years) – this semester I’m teaching the same course to two groups, so it’s only 1 planning, that I’m sharing with a colleague teaching the same course on a different campus. This is actually less work than I did as an instructor. One of my colleagues taught 6 courses during one semester last year, as an instructor, at two different institutions, so this is definitely an improvement. The other thing is, I get paid for all the volunteer time I used to put in – service and admin are part of my yearly task, so I actually get paid to organize conferences, review papers, and attend meetings. But still, I have a tendency to be too hard on myself, to want to do everything perfectly, especially teaching. I wish I cared less about whether or not my students enjoy my class and find it useful, but it’s my biggest source of stress (well, that and the looming deadlines…). This blog post is the one that has stuck with me, the mantra I repeat in my head when the guest speaker I invited did not live up to my expectations, or when I rush through things that I wish I had more time to do properly. Some highlights:

“Your job is not to advance the academy. It is not to change the academy. It is not to improve the academy.

Your job is not to win a teaching award.

Your job is to make friends with other junior faculty in your department and in other departments, and go out to coffee or lunch with them on a regular basis.

Your job is to find a trusted senior colleague as mentor, and to meet with that colleague at least twice a semester.

Your job is to maintain some semblance of a home life and a relationship with the important people in your life.

Your job is to maintain a hobby or outside interest that feeds your soul.”

Apparently I am not alone…

ABD’s make up a significant portion of tenure-track hires, another article.

Double identity – professor and phd student

I’m working on a workshop on this subject with a couple of colleagues, and wanted to use the blog as a place to fiddle around with ideas. As I have no time at the moment, here are a couple of blog posts/articles on other sites that are helping me adjust to my new double life:

Survival Guide (don’t read the French version, it’s abridged)

Tips on decorating your office (and door) for new faculty

I’ll add more in the next few weeks…

Turning your PhD into a job

Is it a coincidence that I received a complimentary review copy of The Professor is In’s new book, The Essential Guide to Turning Your PhD into a Job (by Karen Kelsky) on the same day as I received my first tenure-track job offer? No, you didn’t miss anything, my PhD is not complete, not really all that close – I still have 4 more interviews to transcribe, lots of analysis, and some chapters to write, and re-write. But I did manage to get a job as “Assistant Professor of Preschool Education” as an ABD at a pretty much unknown (outside of Quebec) public university (a very small university) in a city that is 2 and a half hours away from where I live with my partner and our two kids, one of whom just started high school this Fall (none of my family members were interested in moving cities 2 weeks before the start of the school year, so I’m a train-in, train-out academic this year – more on that in a later post).

So this post is a review of the book, as well as a plea to The Professor (or anyone really) to write the How to Survive Your First Year on the Tenure-Track, and How to Complete Your Dissertation While Working As a Prof books.  First things first, the book:

I discovered the Professor Is In’s blog and website almost a year ago, when I noticed the end of my scholarship looming and realized I needed to start applying for jobs. Due to my inability to correctly read the postdoc application (I thought I had to have submitted a final draft before applying), I started applying to adjunct positions and tenure-track jobs that mentioned ABDs (and a few that didn’t). Of course, one of my primary concerns was what to wear to a job interview, should I ever be offered one, and I stumbled upon the Professor Is In site when I googled “what to wear to an academic job interview.” I was immediately hooked, as her blog/site is all about how to play the academic game, and why you shouldn’t want to. Now I follow her on Facebook, and you can too!

When her book came out, I was super excited, and I put it on my wishlist, because even though it only retails for less than 9$, said scholarship was long gone and my credit card maxed out. So imagine my joy and amazement when the publisher offered me a free copy in exchange for a book review on the blog!


The book is basically the blog in book form, so while I had already read the section on what to wear to an interview or what the search committee really wants to know when they ask those interview questions, it is great to have all that content organized logically and in book format. I really like being able to flip through the table of contents or open the book randomly and begin reading, depending on my mood. The information is useful and straight-to-the-point, and while it is somewhat disheartening to read about the decline of higher education funding in the U.S., it’s really credible and helpful. Kelsky takes her readers step-by-step through the job search process, with practical advice on how to prepare application materials, rock the job talk, and negotiate an offer, as well as everything in between.

Writing from Canada, and from a position where I can work at either French- or English-language universities, it mostly served to terrify me and make me feel really lucky to have a job at all. For example, in describing the job search, The Professor explains that a university may get 900 applications for a single job. She writes mostly from her experience in the humanities and social sciences (she was an anthropologist focused on Japan) working in the U.S. (the blog tends to be a bit broader with guest posts about applying for jobs in the U.K., as well as how to tailor your application for different types of institutions). This is not so much a criticism as it is a celebration of the detail of the book, and a call to other academics or former academics to publish similar books about job searches in other places. I applied to jobs in the U.K. and Australia and had a hard time figuring out the different titles (what is a Reader anyway?) and whether it’s a bad sign to be invited to an interview on the afternoon of December 24th (in Canada that would not happen, and if it did, you wouldn’t want to work at that university, but in England it appears to be within normal parameters).

The Professor also seems to assume that her readers are young and have gone straight from bachelors to masters to PhD without any professional experience. This is problematic for two reasons. First, chapter six, The Attributes of a Competitive Tenure-Track Candidate is basically a list of attributes for an emotionally mature candidate, things that those of us with professional experience and life experience should already have. Other sections of the book (Myths Grad Students Believe; How to Stop Acting Like a Grad Student, etc.) are similar. However, the author doesn’t discuss age discrimination (against the young or old) in academic hiring, how old is too old for a tenure-track position, which disciplines tend to value youth and which tend to value professional experience, and other concerns that might apply to those of us in our 40s, 50s, 60s, and 70s when we complete the PhD.

Second, working in an applied field, I was disappointed that she didn’t mention the importance of professional experience. I’m in Education, where teaching experience in early childhood, elementary or secondary education is often mentioned in the job ad. I remember being a teacher candidate and being unimpressed when we were taught by researchers who seemed to have no understanding of what it’s like to teach children in a classroom. I understand that there are probably very few jobs in anthropology, philosophy, sociology etc. outside the university setting, so this may not be something she’s familiar with, but it would be nice to have a better understanding of the emphasis to place on professional experience vs. university teaching vs. research experience in the job search process.

While most grad students would probably be tempted to read the book as they begin to feel out the job market, in order to set yourself up to be number 1 out of 900, Kelsky’s advice begins with choosing the highest ranking school that offers you funding, choosing the right supervisor, and setting out a 5-year-plan as soon as you begin grad school. I’m not sure how to suggest she market it to those considering entry into doctoral programs, but I think the title sends the message that the book is addressed to those who are finished or close to finishing their studies, and often by that time, it’s too late to build the academic and publishing record and network she suggests. However, she doesn’t address being strategic about what field (and subfield) you enter, which seems to me could really influence your chances of landing a tenure-track. Early Childhood Education is a growing field, and there are fewer of us in it than in the more established K-12 field (and even fewer who can work in French). I know someone in Design who can’t even find a PhD program but who knows that she’ll easily find a tenure-track job as soon as she does because it’s a growing field and there are so few designers with PhDs. Of course trends change and may be different in different places, but if you’re thinking about what to study and you have a few different interests, and you already know you want a tenure-track job (I did not know this at all when I went back to school), it’s something you might want to consider.

In any case, I highly recommend the book, and even though not everything translates outside of the United States, it’s really a great resource!

Thesis Boot Camp

First of all, the key word is CAMP. We spent a weekend at a children sleep away camp and it brought back memories of summers when I was young. 40 adults sharing one dorm/bunk. Showers/toilets a short walk away. Dining hall, lake, forest, it was an amazing experience. The thesis part was different. It wasn’t actually called bootcamp, it was called Thésez-vous? Thèse means thesis, but it’ a play on words, because it is a play on words – it sounds the same as taisez-vous! which is what our teachers would scream at us in elementary when we were making too much noise – so kind of the equivalent of shut up and write. We were also not encouraged to count the number of words, but to come up with very specific goals – primary goals and secondary goals. My primary goal was to rewrite my Statement of the Problem chapter so that it would be more coherent with my theoretical framework. My secondary goal was to complete my Methodology Chapter, now that the data collection is done. I didn’t get to that, but I succeeded with goal #1. I also got to meet a bunch of people from different universities in vastly different domains, and bond with my colleague. My favourite part was the emphasis on balance between exercise and outdoor play and writing – we would work in 3-hour spurts and then play outside. I mostly ran, and missed a lot all the swimming and canoeing because it was too cold, and because I keep drinking wine after dinner and laughing, but that’s balance too, somehow. A break from the family, from cooking, cleaning, and a chapter done. A weekend well spent!

Master Class

This week I condensed my thesis project and preliminary results into a 10 minute presentations – 10 minutes! – and presented it at a master class on research on contemporary families, organized by a research partnership on families, to which I am not officially affiliated, at another university. Each of the 6 presenting students had been assigned one or two “masters” to comment the written text (5 to 10 pages) we submitted in February, as well as the oral presentation. I went with one of my colleagues, but he’s in community psychology and I’m in education. We had an official practice in front of 2 of our colleagues/friends the day before – I like to do that, especially when I present in French, but it’s always useful, particularly to avoid nervousness on the day of. The presentation went well and I got useful feedback from both the “masters” and from the rest of the audience. Most important, I need to change my title to better reflect the purpose of my research. So that was great, but the best part was meeeting and listening to students from diverse disciplines (mostly sociology and anthropology) present their projects. At least 3 of us were using narrative methods. As narrative methods are pretty rare in early childhood education, I was thrilled to meet other students using them, and using a similar theoretical framework. It was a great day, and a much needed burst of inspiration as everyone was really positive and interested in my project – which I need for the last 20 interviews transcriptions!

Thesis boot camp and the Master class

So life continues, I am spending the days I had set aside to work on my thesis (which means to finish the transcriptions) correcting my students’ final papers, and I’ve already started teaching another class. My scholarship ran its course so the money I earn is cut in half. I started applying for jobs, and of course I am still working as a research coordinator 18 hours a week. Not to mention my son’s school choir performance at 2:45 in the afternoon, and the volunteer position as administrator for the new university childcare centre which seems to be taking more and more of my time lately, and it is no wonder my project is not advancing quickly. I said I wanted to take the slow route, but I’m not sure this is what I meant. I do have a few events coming up in the next month or so that will force me to get back to work. Next Wednesday I am participating in a master class on the contemporary family that a research centre at another university is organizing. I am not all that sure what a master class is – 6 of us MA and PhD students present our research projects briefly (we have 10 minutes) and then the “masters,” researchers or professors or experts in the field, will comment on the presentation and on the 5-10 page description of our projects that we submitted in February. So it is kind of like a research seminar. I can’t figure out why they’re doing it, unless the research centre is looking for future collaborators, but I’m looking forward to discussing my project. Of course it is next Wednesday and I haven’t started preparing the presentation yet, but I’m not panicking yet…
At the beginning of June I’m presenting preliminary results at a conference. That should motivate me to get back to the transcriptions. Finally, inspired by the Thesis Whisperer, some students in my city have organized a thesis writing retreat over a weekend at an environmental education centre in the country. I am curious about how it’ll work and about the fact that we have to sleep in a dorm (I’m 41!), but I think it could be very helpful. Anyways, I’ll let you all how these events go…I guess it’s time to get back to that pile of corrections before the kids wake up!


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